Well, well, well...

I've never been one to go down for the count and stay down. Lying around is just boring when there is a whole world outside. Against my better judgment (and probably against my doctor's advice a time or two) I was that person that would roll into the office sick as a dog, run after my boss waving papers while coughing and gasping for air as the rest of the office, a safe distance behind, sprayed Lysol and wiped down everything I touched with bleach cloths. I would cast off whatever ailed me, shower and dress and head straight out into the wild blue yonder, going like the Energizer Bunny until my body begged me to quit. But these last few weeks have been quite difficult on my physical and emotional state. I didn't feel like quitting. Every fiber of me was saying go-go-go but everyone around me has been saying, "Slow down and take it easy. You've just been through a lot."

I have always envied the people who were able to stop and smell the roses; those folks who could just let the dishes go while they sat on the porch to watch the sunset. How fulfilling it must be to just forget about all the minutia of life and enjoy all the beauty, the calm, the hushed gentle sounds that are too often drowned out by the noise of our lives. It seemed that the slow, tranquil nature they exhibited was the essence of balance and that my busybody personality was in direct competition with real equilibrium.

But what is balance? Is it truly the outward action of sitting still or rather an inward action of sitting still? As it turns out, balance is achieving a feeling of contentment that is steadfast right down to the core and that sense of ease and comfort will be derived in different ways for different people. As long as there is an understanding of what makes life joyful, it doesn't matter if you are a tornado blowing through at 90 to nothing or a just hanging out laughing at the folks in the fast lane.

Before the upheaval of the past few days, I felt that balance. I felt well in every aspect of my life- physically, emotionally, environmentally, socially, occupationally, intellectually and spiritually. Before I found out I was pregnant, all of these things were in tune. While I was pregnant all of these things were in tune. And now that pain and misery that came with losing my baby have started to subside, I feel that I am back in tune once more. So why then should I change?

I think this is the process we are caught up in all too often; that making a complete change of character is what we need. When in fact, what we need is to be in sync with who we really are and not fight it. To constantly battle ourselves is a path that forks away from balance. To accept who we are and to seek to make ourselves wholly well is the road to balance.

So I've made an agreement with me that as long as I feel well, happy, and truly balanced, I'll keep right on trucking even if the rest of the world thinks I'm loony. I'll just smile and wave while I jog on the steps of the funny house!


Kym Wilson
123 Feel Better Wellness Advisor
http://www.123feelbetter.net/
Make today a life changing event!