My life with Adhd

I am a mom of a child with a form of Autism and alittle Adhd. Its hard sometimes but I seem to push through it. I wish she was like other little girls sometimes. I don't get to do up her hair or have fun playing with babydolls. Its ok she is special in everyway to me. My little angel from heaven.
So here is what I lived and learned over these 8 years. Quit worrying your child will grow up and be ok. Thats all that matters. Yes I ran to the Library to find out all I could and what I could do to make things better for her and myself. I felt like things just all in a sudden spinned out control and I didn't know how to deal with it. I would wear myself out thinking about things that where pretty clear was out of my control.
Heres what I prayed " God, I love you and all you do. I know you only gave me what I could handle, I know one day I will know why. I put my trust in you and all you do."
So I checked with all kinds of doctors and websites. When I came across this CHAD website that pretty much told me how to go about testing at school to help her. Wow I was blown away. Nobody told me about a test at school she could do. I guess if everyone knew schools would be testing every child which I think they should do anyway. She was tested and now she is getting all the help she needs with her IEP.
We did the medications for awhile. Her moods changed overnight it was nice for awhile.
Then came the day she wasn't eatting.
She was so little it was scary so we took her off the meds and she did really good for awhile. She started eatting alot. So much so she went up 5 sizes in two months. So once again back to the doctor to find out whats going on. The doctor seems to think she is doing well at school with the help she gets that we will treat and see if it depression. So so far so good. Not really happy about her taking med.
I feel like my hands are tied. We tried all the books about healthy eatting to the spirited child.
Doctor suggested 123 magic. I don't want to read another book about things I already know. There is no support group in my area. I wish I had someone to talk to that is going through the same things I am.
Now I am working on me shes 8 now and when I look in the mirror now its like who is that. I used so much time and energy on her that I have totally lost ME. So here I go working on me so I can be Me and not just considered my daughters mom.